Why is it I always feel like blogging when I feel sad. I should be able to write when I'm overflowing with Joy as well. But hah I seem to have lost my Joy at the moment. Don't know where it has fucked off to quite honestly. I seem to be faced with a new challenge each day, be it I have a broken heart, which doesn't help matters. So I better cheer up and tell my Joy it can come back now cos I've had enough sulking. It's time to move on and get on with things i.e. my life ! Oh yes, that's right I do have one.
I don't know where I get it from, but when I get down and out I get very determined, so I got up the ladder with my moon boot on cos I have a fractured foot, with a bottle of wine, and I painted the hallway in my house. One moment cursing, the next moment crying lol. It's really just sheer grit and determination to not stay down, to get back up, to fight back, to carry on, to bounce back, and that's my way. I injure myself a lot lol.
Does anyone else do that sort of shit ?
So due to all the emotional stress, THE Eczema (I'm not calling it MY Eczema anymore), rares its ugly head, and I start scratching. Extra measures are required to clear it up. First of all kick the anxiety away and calm down. Second of all, watch my diet ! Third of all, I NEED a ticket to Rarotonga where I don't know anyone and I am forced to relax with Pina Coladas on the beach with a book.
I am so happy to be a Healthcare Assistant to the Elderly, I love it. They lift my spirits, put a smile on my face, help me to keep a sense of humour, and I stop thinking about me. Don't we get so tired of thinking of ourselves sometimes ? I do ! Ok for me to write this I must be getting my Joy back. YAY! Just get all the way back now.
