Oh I have had quite a bit of feedback about my Blog. Thank you everyone for your kind words etc. Some have said they have cried, oh please don't cry I'm all good. My Journey is what makes me who I am, and what's ahead I don't know, but I must continue to learn. So anyway, life goes on right ?
By 1986 long term side effects of Steriods (please know that these are not Anabolic steroids that athletes use, they are of the immune suppressant family) were beginning to show on me. I was all blown up like a balloon, fat as, I had thinning hair, thinned skin, insomnia, a big round moon face and God knows what was going on inside me. Other side effects are softening of bones, decreased sex drive, kidney and liver damage and there is more.
So it's 1986 right and I throw them all away, the steroids, anti-biotics, anti-depressants. It was WAR.
I got horribly sick, My skin erupted all over, I went three times in six weeks to hospital with chronic asthma attacks...yet I refused the steroids. I was living with a nice guy at the time. After nine months of suffering it out, all my hair fell out...I got Alopecia Universalis, full body hair loss. Well, this rocked my boat as I felt like my beautiful blonde hair was all I had left. But, life goes on and I must cope. My boyfriend was still with me, in fact that year we got married, I wore my first wig ever on my wedding day.
Enter into my life an elderly lady Mrs Clara Williamson. A life changing kind of lady, do you know the type? She taught me much that I needed to learn about life. She was a retired hairdresser and specialised in Alopecia. Well, that's another long chapter except to say she worked on me so hard that my hair grew back. It took a year, she became my darling Mrs Williamson for 15 more years till she died, and her technique died with her. Look, if you have an old school skill, please pass it on !
Another year later I got divorced. One thing was, I knew I had married because I thought He would be the only man that would love me the way I looked, second, he slept with my neighbour and she got pregnant. I had been married almost 2 years and never got pregnant. I STILL had the Eczema all over me. Eczema affects the sufferers whole life. Employment opportunities, relationship opportunities, socially, I'm sure you get the picture. Somehow I have always managed to get work, maybe not the dream job I always wanted, but work. I left school at fifteen and got an office job, I was a secretary for twenty years, my fingers would bleed when I typed. Then I got tired of sitting behind a desk I became a Nanny, filled the gap of not having my own children. I am blessed with three other peoples children in my life. They are all grown up now but call me there second mummy. Also, I have my three beautiful nieces. You see, all those Steroids had made me infertile so I could not have my own children. If you can't have want you want, fill the gap I say !
What is Strength ? Is it sheer grit and determination ? Where is it and How do I get it ?
Did I always have it, if so, I need more !
